May 6th, 2010

AKA proof that the mental health system does work, and i apologise to it

I had an appt today. I haven't mentioned it in case it got cancelled again (which it almost did). It was a different psychiatric nurse than stated on the letter, because that one was off sick and they didn't want to cancel again as they cancelled the last one and I've been 'waiting long enough'.

She was lovely. I talked normally, and completely, and rationally, but was also completely honest.

At the end she asked me what I want out of my mental health treatment. No one has ever done that before. Such a simple question, and it meant the world.

"I just want to know if this is it. If this is how I'm going to be, that's fine, but I need to know for the future. I feel much better than I did 18 months ago, thanks to the pills, but if there's a way things can be more even and level, then that'd be great too."

It surprised me that I could be so rational about what I actually want. I'm sure she helped to bring it out, but I'm also pleased I can be more rational with people who are trying to help me.